So life must go on… Cleaning, because we have too, Eating because we have too, working cause we have too, living because we have too. Everybody keeps asking me… Maria how do you do it? I say… Do I have a choice? What else can I do? My heart aches every second of my waking hours, even at night I am torn out of a sound sleep, waking up in a cold sweat. For a split second I think to myself… Oh my God… am I dreaming, please lord let this be a very bad dream! Well its not a dream! Its reality. A reality I don’t wish upon any parent, brother, sister, uncle, aunt, grandparent or any person out there. Now that tragedy has hit my home I am seeing so much clearer, I am truly understanding that there is so much more good in people than any of us know. All we hear about is the bad in people. It has amazed me on all levels, spiritually especially. A few years ago my father was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer.The doctors took fluid from his chest and sent it in for a biopsy. When it came back they informed us that it was small cell lung cancer(he worked in mines for many years) and that he should go home and get his affairs in order because life expectancy was about three months. We were all in shock, how could this happen, he was an athlete, he watched everything he ate, he lived a healthy lifestyle. At that point my dad told me… Maria, its all written. He meant that our life and everything that happens is for a reason. He was a very spiritual man. As he lied in the hospital bed that night slipping in and out of sleep he had a visitor. It was mother Mary, she came to his bed side and said to him son, don’t worry everything will be OK. Its not your time yet. The next visit I had with my father was amazing! He told me of his vision with eyes wide open and such excitement. He said Maria, the colors around her were colors we don’t have on earth. I remember joking around saying… come on dad, are you sure you were not sleeping. He looked at me and said I know what I saw! My father lived seven years after that! Now since Eleni has left us its been almost a month, a month of gut wrenching pain, I being a woman can freely cry, my husband … not so much. Men tend to keep it all inside… After all that’s what we have been trained in…Men are not supposed to cry right… I know though that men are weaker than women and even more sensitive than us. As we lied in bed Geoff jumped up with a sense of peace that he didn’t have before. He told me that Eleni came up to him and kissed him on the forehead and said ” Daddy everything in going to be OK” Geoff said she had a glowing halo around her! He is now giving me strength. I just finished reading Heaven is for real..This is the story of a child that died and came back. The book explains his amazing joyrney with god and many other family members who had passed on…There are more and more signs helping me understand that Eleni was truly here as a saint, she was here to make a difference in our hearts and in our lives. How else can you explain all of the students from the West Fargo High school coming together the way they did? All the kids, even the ones that didn’t even know my daughter. Everybody young and old has come to us, to warm our frozen hearts, offering anything we need. Offering support. People have contacted me from all over the world! Yes… we only hear of the bad in people… But I’m here to tell all of you that nobody is truly bad, we can not judge anybody any time! We don’t know what anybody has gone through, or what anybody is going through. Somebody can snap at you because they are having financial, health or family problems, instead of judging them and getting upset offer a warm smile to them. Try to help them. People … life is so short… And don’t think I am like this now because of what happened, sure it has made me more aware but I as well as my family have always believed in the good in everyone, maybe Eleni’s passing was a way for me to tell everyone my true feelings. How else would I ever had everybody’s attention? We should not only say oh my god help me when times are tough, we should say oh my god… thank you for my blessings when times are good too! Especially when times are good. We are truly blessed to be able to live in the best place in the world with the best people in the world! On this Thanksgiving day I say God Bless America!!! God bless all of our families, God bless the soldiers, God bless the sick and please heal anybody that needs you to heal them.We are so truly blessed, Gods light shines on all of us! Eleni’s light is also now right there beside him. Yes I am the mother that got to have this wonderful human being for almost 18 years, now that I think about it I always knew down deep in my heart Eleni was special, I knew she was wise beyond her years, I always knew she was an old soul… She came to this earth to complete a mission, she has completed her job with straight A’z and left us. Lets make sure her teachings, her happiness, her love and thirst for life continues to glow inside all of us! I hope this holiday season all the families come together, I hope everybody forgets their difference’s and loves one and other. After all … that’s all we have! We surly don’t get to take anything else with us when we leave this testing ground.
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